08 March 2009

new hat!

hokay, so i've been wanting a cycling hat for a little bit, but either the hats they have online are too pricey for me, or they don't have the ones i want. so, i made one :-) for your viewing pleasure:i'm going to have to figure out how to attach the brim of the hat a little better next time, but for a first hat, i'd say it turned out pretty good! it's comfortable too.

03 March 2009

i simply don't understand.

why do we so often place so much stock in the temporary things that we're experiencing now? i could turn anything into an example. the bed i sleep in every night; yes, it is very comfortable and warm, but not too long from now, it will be worn out, dirty, and laying in a dumpster somewhere. the bikes that i ride; they are fun and useful now, but they'll eventually rust and become useless. my job and my income; it provides me with the ability to live comfortably, but in today's world, i'm never guaranteed a thing. besides, billions of people survive on far less than what i make in one day. it all just makes me think, do i really need what i think i need, or what the rest of society tells me i need?

job 1:21 --
"naked I came from my mother's womb,
and naked i will depart.
the LORD gave and the LORD has taken away;
may the name of the LORD be praised."

i am never guaranteed anything will last forever except for faith, hope, and love, of which love is the greatest.

so i ask again, why do we wrap ourselves up so much in the petty things (they may not seem petty now, but in the scheme of things, they are.), when there is so much more waiting for us to grab onto? i, for one, have made the decision to live life as simply as possible. that is the essence of what my life goal is. i don't want a multi-hundred-thousand dollar paycheck. i don't want to be at the top of the food chain. in a world where everyone is looking out for number one, i want to be the failure. if what jesus said is true, when he told us that the first will be last and the last will be first, i want that.

so go ahead. call me a screwed up failure. we all are in the long run, and i'm ok with not hiding the fact that i am. it's easier for everyone that way. i know who loves me. i want everyone else to know that love too. i think that's the purpose in my life.